mother's day -- a day to make the mothers in your life feel special. And my mom is special -- she has been 100% there for me and is such a support and encouragment in my life! I love you, Mom!
but the actually day is so bittersweet for me. i ache to be a mother of a living child that can draw me a picture or be a reminder to others that i am a mother as well. i keep wondering what he would look like now at 16 months. He'd be walking, saying so many words, drawing little pictures, and smiling all the time. i miss him so much. so this sunday I am going to wake up, go to church, and buy myself some flowers -- or let khalid buy them. so that I can remember that i am a mommy to a precious little boy.
Nicoda:
Your life was a blessing,
your memory a treasure.
You are loved beyond words
and missed beyond measure.
Your son has weight in this world dear friend! His life has already been a blessing to me and his death has ministered to me as well. I am sorry that motherhood for you is different than so many. I wish we knew a little man who could run, play, talk and give sweet kisses here on earth. I long to take your pain away, but I appreciate the honesty and lessons I have learned from you in your journey in all of this. You are so beautiful, inside and out!
ReplyDeleteI bought a bracelet in Nicoda's honor the other day. When I wear it, I think of ya'll. And the proceeds went to the March of Dimes. You are literally on my mind often and if my harms could reach you, I would hug you everyday!
Happy late Mother's Day!
~ Kara Deal