Well -- more than half done and I'm ready! :) Okay, so not ready pers
ay as having everything ready, but ready in that my body just doesn't appreciate being pregnant. Mr. Cupcake will help me forget all my pregnancy woes after he comes, I'm sure, but right now I have A.W.F.U.L. back aches and side pain. But worse than my physical discomfort, was how emotional I got when I hit 20 weeks. 20 weeks is the crossover from a miscarriage to a stillbirth determination -- and a stillborn is buried. I know that the actual weeks changing don't really change anything, but just the thought of Cupcake having to be buried is suffocating. Not very positive thinking either... But Praise God because He knows what we are thinking and going through and sends people to minster to use in that spot. I go to a prenatal prayer group and last week one of the prayer partners told me something that really altered my thinking and stress. She reminded me how much God loves this baby. God is letting me take care of this child, but ultimately the child is still His. She went on to talk about how all of our life experiences shape the cross we carry and mentioned that Nicoda dying and my pregnancy stress are part of my cross. But the blessing is that our crosses mold us and better us. I can't explain why it made me feel so much better, but am SO thankful that it did. Nicoda dying, this pregnancy stress, none of it is too big for God to handle. God can take my sorrow and turn it into joy -- He can bring new life and is bringing it right now.
So sorry that you had to read all of that just to get to this one picture! Ha! I pray that God is blessing you today -- that you know that all the things in your life (good and bad) are shaping your testimony, your story of how God is using you. Alles Gute! Blessings!
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super cute lady! i'm so proud of you and how you are growing in Christ! you are an amazing example of a "wounded healer."
ReplyDeleteaw you look good girl.
ReplyDeletethanks for sharing. it made me cry thinking about our personal crosses and how God takes care of it.
Amen Leah! And, cute as cute can be, mama!Praying for you and sweet cupcake all of the time!
ReplyDeleteThank you for these words- they are good! God is at work with you- as he is with all of us. And on earth we will never be finished- so don't feel sad if you aren't :)
ReplyDeleteThere's something I'ld like to tell you:
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1, 9
Do not be discouraged- God will be with you, always! As long as there is God, there is hope! What a blessing that God has no end :)
Sending you a tight hug from Austria, Graz.